Frozen Tears

sick :'(

Thu, 18 May 2006 02:44:45 GMT

So i am sick yet again....
This is getting real old you know?
I stayed home today, even though i missed so much school already.
And i know this is a little off the subject of being sick, but before i was like omg im depressed over this kid Rob, now i am just more and more determined to go back out with him.
We used to date before for like one year, and i dont know why i broke up with him i was just being really stupid back then i guess. But now im like alright you like me i like you lets make babies. ( as the wise Lauren would say.) but i am really not going to do that lol.
So anyways. I just want to date him soo BAD. Ever scince i broke up with him ( which was in the 7th grade and i am now in the 10th grade.) Ive always sort a say love him. I always think about what it would be like doing this with him, looking at the stars ( i know corny) but thats what i think about. I dream that we are together. Whenever someone talks about their boyfriend i start to think about me and Rob how we use to be. The only problem with him is that he is sex driven. And i remember i got up the corage to ask him out recently and he said to one of his firends that he would date me if i would have sex with him and of course i didnt but it was the whole fact that he would only go out with if i had sex with him. He'd talked behind my back, but even though he did that and said all those things i still came back to thinking of him. He'd make me cry for hours non stop about what he did or said, but i still love him.

Well anyways now that i went from sick to my love life.
i got to go, ill talk to you all later.
♥ Lissaa

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 17:06:55 GMT

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 00:15:28 GMT

I'm at Lauren's house right now.
She's the greatest person in the world.
And she wants everyone to know that.
I mean really, shes just wonderful.
It's great.
Be jealous.

Anyways, enough of that.

Sorry I havent updated in forever.
Lots been going on.

I'll try and update more frequently.

Loveyouall.

Lauren actually wrote this

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 20:42:03 GMT

</small>so yea glad thats over OMG! that party was sooo fucking scary. Why cant guys just get a grip and not touch people all the friggin time all i wanted was to be with my brother for his b-day and have some fun! omg but the guys just grabbed me and said stuff like " hey i just want to get you drunk so i can take advantage of her." i cant stand men. then their almost was this big fight from this guy that wanted to protect me from people like that and he started to yell at him and wanted to fight him. then that guy that kept on grabbing me came upstairs in my room and said because of you this guy wants to fight me, i wanted to say " yea well if you didnt touch me then nothing would have happend. but i said nothing i didnt want to get into a fight at my brothers b-day. well anyways im watching Fantastic 4 so ill talk to you guys later.

♥ Lissa

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OMG!

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 17:53:45 GMT

So yea i cant WAIT till Christmas, and its my brother's b-day is 2morrow /sigh his 21st and he is havinh a party here and im a little afraid for him. i dont want him to hurt himself like he did last time heh. well talk to you later.

<3 ♥ Lissa

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 18:13:00 GMT

Hey whats up everyone i hope you have a safe and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!! sorry again that i havnt updated in awhile.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 01:36:20 GMT

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Sun, 30 Oct 2005 23:18:36 GMT

so yea im sick again /sigh....
right before Halloween my favorite holiday ever but im still doing something for it.
i feel like im going to die though and it kinda sucks but thats ok.
yea this guy asked me out and he did some bad things to my friend Kyrstal and i dont want to date him but i dont know what to do if i say no im going to have to tell him why. that could be just a little awkward. just a little lol.

<3 Lissa

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 22:47:36 GMT

So now im crying at the same thing agian. I really kinda thought that i was over Rob i hadnt cried about him in awhile, but it hit all at once. If i could have one wish it would for to be have NO feelings at all. i dont even think he knows if im alive anymore nor dose he care probably. i could drop off the planet and he wouldnt notice. I tired to stop talking to him thinking maybe i would stop loveing him, but that didnt work i can see. im really sorry that i keep having sad things in my LJ but its the only thing i can rely on besides friends.

When he used to come over we'd act like a couple, but then he'd go home forget about it. i know i shouldnt love a guy that makes me cry but i cant help that.

<3 Lissa

thanks

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 17:09:32 GMT

so yea, i stayed home from school. even though it's a friday. it was one of those nights where everything you do you try and try to get to sleep, but then theres nothing you soo tired but nothing. lol
Also i have Tendonitis which means my tendons in my shoulder are like decaying or something, so that didnt help it HURTS! lol
/sigh so here i am writting in my LJ holding my shouder staring at it sleeply.

well night
<3 Lissa

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:53:01 GMT

so yea today was Pj day, i wore the biggest flippin pant i mean you could fit like 4 people in them. YESSSS.
i felt comfortable while i was there. ^.^
o and if you want my Myspace ( if you have one ) here it is....
http://www.myspace.com/x0kissme_hard

thanks <3 Lissa.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 21:47:54 GMT

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Sun, 16 Oct 2005 06:37:03 GMT

sorry i didnt update....forgive me.
i was a little busy.
soo yea i still love that Rob kid and i think he is dateing the girl that hurt him and i dont want him to get hurt anymore....
but my opinon dont matter no matter what right...
well g2g again sorry for not updating LISSA'S BACK DON DON DONNNNN! lol
<3 Lissa

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 19:37:22 GMT

I sware i could go on Laguna Beach with all my drama....

Jordan my Ex boyfriend, said that i was a shallow b**** that hits on everything with a dick!" OMG then i put in my profile you need to get the F**** over it! and then he imed me saying that he wasnt that mad at me. OMG! the only thing i did was frigging brake up with him it happens!!!!!!!!! sorry im taking it out on here but it needs to go somewhere. well ttyl... <3 Lissa

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 22:38:30 GMT

At Lauren's house....
Im still loveing Rob, and everytime i watch a show about someone getting hurt by their love i can realate and say to myself " yea i know how you feel." And my mother keeps on telling me that i will never be a "trophy wife" she keeps on saying things like the only thing guys want you for is sex and it kinda makes me feel like no one is ever going to love me. but when i said that to my ex he said " hey thats not true cuz i still love you." and that proves that someone can love me, but the only problem is that i dont love him i only love him as a friend....
i dont know what to do i've loved Rob scince 7th grade and im in 10 grade a Sophmore and i still love him just the same maybe even more than i did. i didnt think that was possible.....
<333 Lissa

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 00:44:37 GMT

Sooo yea i cant wait until sunday!!
I am going to hang out with my best friend and my love ( yess even though Rob has done some pretty bad things in the past i still love him. ) But we talked everything out and he said that he was really sorry and that he didnt know that he was leading me on. but i dont see how you can not tell that your leading someone on but whatever. We had a great time the last time they came over. :)
cant wait....
<3333 Liss

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 20:13:51 GMT

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you dont have to keep it just make an accout please it will really help me out.....
<33 Liss

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 03:16:11 GMT

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Sun, 28 Aug 2005 01:57:37 GMT

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Fri, 26 Aug 2005 19:12:03 GMT

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 19:08:13 GMT

AHHH!!!! Ex Boyfriends suck!
OMG, I tell my ex boyfriend the truth about me loveing Rob, and he hangs up on me again. I dont know what to do, i dont like hurting him but i want to be honset about things and the truth i guess hurts him.
I cant help that fact that i love someone im sorry but i just cant.
I wish i would stop hurting him but he ask's me question that i have to answer, and i dont want to lie to him about it, so i tell him and he gets mad at me. AHH! Sorry i am pouring myself in this entry but i dont know what else to do. And Rob is comming over 2day and he'll make me feel better, he always finds a way to make me laugh. But he dose know how to hurt me too, but saying that he thinks about "us" and then has sex with his ex that cheated on him with 5 guys! or something like that. I dont know well i better go.
<33 Liss

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 17:06:08 GMT

I Love Rob, but i have realized that he couldnt give a shit what happens to me. I know i should not cry over a guy but i do all the time. Thats seems to be all that i do all the time is cry. He says he thinks about me and him again like old times, but yet he has his ex girlfriend over all the time and you can just guess what they do. But there is this one guy that i do like alot, T. T is really nice but the only bad thing is, he's one of Rob's good friend. But he dosnt like me like that anyways.
Heres a little simple poem that i wrote it's not really good it's just simple thats all.
" I Love you,
I dont know why i do,
But i do,
You used me,
Lead me to belive that there was another chance,
When really there was nothing to belive....."
Thats it really not very good but its simple and i like it alot.

I really do think its Love......

<3 Liss